Category: Personal

At the risk of sounding like a total cliche jackass, I really am planning to make 2020 my year.

Last year was so crazy hectic that I can’t believe it’s already over. I was definitely caught in a whirlwind of major life changes last year. Now that I’ve kind of gotten settled, I really want to focus of making the ’20s, awesome.

Generally, I don’t really like going out to typical “party” holidays. It always seems like everyone is so stressed out about having plans and having fun and just end up feeling bored or like they’re missing out on something else. Everywhere you go is expensive and packed with people, and it’s amateur hour with people drinking way too much.

This year, instead of going out, I decided to enjoy my new place that I’ve worked so hard for. I bumped some music, lit some candles, and enjoyed some champagne and chocolate instead of going out and gong crazy. It was actually really nice to enjoy a quiet night in with the people (and pets) that I really care about instead of trying to go somewhere crazy just to post it to Instagram or something.

Of course I have some New Years resolutions too:

1. Eat more vegan whole foods
2. Pay off my credit card
3. Start the coverup tattoos on my legs
4. Finish furnishing my new place

If you’re new here, hello. Prepare for a personal-ass post.

If you’ve been here before, you’ve probably noticed that I’ve changed my blog’s name and deleted all my old posts. While it’s been almost a year since I’ve written anything, it’s definitely been a hell of a year.

I’ve always said I wanted this blog to be fun. I would never let it become a job or a chore. I’ve never cared about being a blogger or an influencer or whatever. I just wanted my little corner of the internet where I could express everything I love. But then it stopped being fun so I stopped blogging.

I think I was just really depressed for a while and didn’t want to admit it. I was in a relationship that was having major issues, dealing with family drama, and the future of my career was up in the air. I always ended up having to be the one that held the fort down, was the shoulder to cry on, and was the voice of reason. But then I think I started to lose myself a little bit and fell into a depression and anxiety worm hole.

Then, about a month before I turned 25, I ended my long term relationship, bought my first place, tried to distance myself from drama, and finally got my career in order. I spent the first half of my 20’s trying to live for other people, but I’m going to be spending the rest of my life living for myself.

Anyways, sorry for the personal post. Maybe it makes up for almost a year of not writing anything. I promise I’ll come back this time.

Photo by Ben Staley.